Month: August 2018

You know how some people have Sugar Daddies? Well, I don’t have that. However, the Universe has gifted me a Splenda….Person? And thus begins the tale of Fletcher.

I’ve known Fletcher for 20 years, since high school (does that make me sound really old?? uggghhh), but we only really started communicating again a few years ago when he was living overseas. It started out as texting when we were bored and it become a real friendship in the last couple years. Nothing romantic, just very good friends. Hence the ‘splenda’ since he isn’t getting the ‘sugar’ from me. I’d like to take credit for this, but actually it was Fletcher that coined the term. Darn it.

Anyways, after my moving expenses, delay in getting a paycheck, and apartment deposits, I was flat broke. Like, I had barely scraped by to get into the apartment I’m living in and I seriously had $20 to last for 2 weeks til I got paid. At that point, buying a cup of noodles would be considered a luxury with my budget. I had already borrowed money from my friend so I was just resigned to make it work somehow.

Let it be known, that throughout the last couple years, Fletcher has always sent me small random I-was-drunk-shopping-on-Amazon gifts. Usually it was something I mentioned I needed or wanted. If beer or Jameson was involved at the time I mentioned it, said item would arrive on my doorstep a few days later. One time a year ago while texting, I had complained that I was out of ramen and how I reeeeaaaallllly wanted ramen (clearly, I was drinking wine at this point in time…a lot of wine) and three days later an entire case of ramen unexpectedly showed up at my apartment.

This time though, after learning of my financial plight, Fletcher set up an account for me on the Target app, that allows me to shop for items that I need like food and toiletries, and even clothes for work. I don’t even think he was drunk at the time. He told me to get what I need and he would pay for it, and I could pick it up at the Target near my house. If that wasn’t enough, he also sent me furniture for my room, since all I had at this point was a mattress( a king size mattress that I got for FREE from some guy my sort-of -ex- best -friend was sleeping with. It’s a long story…but hey, I didn’t spend a dime on it!)

Let me tell you how much of a lifesaver that Flectcher is to me. I had always been grateful for all the small random drunk gifts I received but this was something way above what I ever could have imagined. Honestly, I don’t even know how I would have made it the last few weeks (or maybe even years) without him. I am sooooooooo grateful! Thanks, Fletch! You tha real MVP.

It took my dumbass wayyyyy too long to realize that letting go of anxiety, worry and fear is the only way to manifest truly life changing circumstances into your existence. I mean, I know I read that crap in all the books, but it’s like this: you know when you are dating that guy who is an asshole and all your friends see it and try to tell you, and you just don’t get it until you experience it and really go through it yourself? Then when you finally get it you want to slam your head against the wall for being such a freaking moron?

Yep, I dated the shit out of anxiety and fear and now I’m ready to settle down with a nice guy like Law of Attraction. Hopefully LOA is still cool with me having a Splenda Fletcher.

It’s no secret that my life over the last several years makes Bridget Jones look like she’s totally got her shit together. Whenever something good would happen and I finally felt like things were looking up, life would just shake it’s head pitifully at me. Thus, it was very difficult to gain any sort of momentum when I would attempt to use Law Of Attraction.

Here’s the annoying thing about LOA, you have to first feel like you have what you want before you can get what you want. Which can really suck when you are having a tough time in life.

But OK…I was back living in the city I love, with a really good job that I enjoy so I was resolved to not fuck shit up this time. Of course, I was also broke, living in a hotel that I couldn’t really afford because the place I was moving into was not available yet. Instead of stressing and feeling shitty about it, I just pretended like there weren’t any issues and went on about my business. OK, weeeeellllll…. I did borrow a little money from my friend (Thanks Jenn! I swear I’ll maybe probably pay you back soon…ish) but then I just told myself I couldn’t always be worrying. So, for the first time in a looooooong time, I didn’t.

And the craziest shit happened. I was happily being consciously oblivious to my dire financial situation, but the reality was I had enough money for a hotel one more night and I couldn’t move into my new apartment with weirdo for another week. Oh yeah, I had looked and looked for other apartments that were available immediately but to no avail. So the apartment with weirdo it was. But not for a week.

Out of the blue, the last day I could afford to pay for a hotel, I received a text from my friend Sarah who I hadn’t even told I was back in town. She had heard from a mutual friend that I was back and didn’t have a place to stay for a week and offered up her apartment. Her roommate had just moved out abruptly and her new roommate wasn’t moving in for another two weeks. Oh, and I’d have my own room with a private bathroom. Aaaaand…there was a mattress left behind as well, so I wouldn’t have to sleep on the floor. Damnnnn, Law of Attraction really came through. I would have been happy with sleeping on someone’s couch but I pretty much got a hotel. Except it was free and I got to hang out with my friend Sarah who is pretty awesome.

I mean, it’s not like I won a million dollars and all of my financial problems were over, but it was exactly what I needed to make it through the week, and I was very grateful.

I think that a lot of people have a misconception about LOA, that it’s about becoming a millionaire and getting a new car or whatever. I mean, I sincerely hope that it about that too because God knows my car is a bigger wreck than my life, and who the fuck doesn’t want a million dollars? Just saying that LOA can be used for everyday stuff as well, and maybe for some people, that’s all they need. Not me, but for some people. I need a million dollars. And I’m sure I’ll get it… someday. In the meantime, I am extremely appreciative of what I’ve been able to attract. Keep the good stuff coming, Universe. I’m here for it.